So. It's that time again. That time when the feelings inside of me are building up and I can't think of any other ways to get them out. Or I just want a distraction. Either way, it's time for me to say hello to that wonderful disease - Seasonal Depression. 

I haven't forgotten this site, even though I tend to drop off the face of the earth quite a bit. It's nice to know that there are still stories here that I can read and enjoy. I think. I hope. 

Honestly, I wasn't sure if I'd come back this time. It's not because I don't want to be a part of this community or anything. I just... Wasn't sure if I wanted to write anymore. And now I don't know if I CAN write anymore. I want to... But I feel like I'm out of ideas. 

I wonder if anyone is actually going to read this. I don't know if I want them to, this is a bunch of rambling and half-formed thoughts. Ah well.

I miss the people I used to talk to on here. I miss the stories I used to read. I miss the authors. 

Is it selfish, wrong of me... I know of at least a few stories that featured SHINee's Jonghyun as a major character that I doubt will ever get finished. Am I selfish for wanting them to anyway? Maybe it's because this is the only way he'll continue going - as a background character to someone else's story.

Dear god that sounded depressing. I should stop typing now.