I'm posting this on my other account and this one. Just so you guys won't think it's two different people. 

I'm so sorry I disappeared from the face of the earth for so long. I was dealing with my mental health. I still am, but now I'm actually seeing a therapist regularly and seeing a clinician to deal with getting the right medication that will help me live a more peaceful life. 

It got bad and with how things have escalated with mental health in the kpop world, it hit me hard. Especially because I didn't come to terms with or get the right help I needed until last year. (I had a bad past experience and just wasn't comfortable with going through the whole mental health help process again). 

My stories are up in the air. I want to start writing again. I haven't stopped, it has just been hard to get my ideas fleshed fully on paper. So I'll start small and take my time. 

I hope you guys have been doing well. And I've been looking for ways to get things off out of my head. Is there anyone that wouldn't mind listening to me word vomit or you know any online sites that do(I do write journals. I just want to talk with someone personally).