Hello everyone,

I'm sorry to bother whoever reading this. Thank you for your time in reading this. I just need to let this out, I don't think my heart can carry on much longer. Every day it's eating me alive inside. Everyday I feel like I’m slowly dying inside. There's this woman I met 6 months ago and she made me hope to love again but I guess that I should not keep my hope so high. I courted her then she said she was not ready and of course since I like her, I told her it's alright that I will wait. Then after a month or so she said me a message if I’m still interested in being with her. Even though she is 4 years older than me. I told her that I don't care about that and told her I really like her. 3 months of bliss she suddenly told me once again that she wants to be single for now and she said about her mom will not like it if she dated a girl. I guess that I'm really stupid that said to her it's alright that I do understand her situation. I just felt like she keeps me in the dark for not telling me that she doesn't want any relationship right now. Until now we are still communicating but the thing is the way she acts tells me that she still likes me. Like she told me if I'm a guy she will date me. That she will wait for me.. Sending me pictures of her and here I am still acting like a fool because I fell in love with her.

Sorry for my not so good English.thank you for your time. I just have nobody to talk to... Thank you again. And Take care. ((: