If U ever read my blog before about my mother's disease, I sure U understand what will I say.

As review, why I always afraid of my future, how can I put someone in my BIG UNABLE, an old woman just lay down in my bed all my life, useless, and so on. So, why I wanna die in my youngest life then spending my future life without nothing. My mom passed away in the middle of thousands people around her, caring for her, love and respect, pure love and crying cuz miss her. 

It so different with my life and self. Without friend, without friends and without friendship. So, I won't look mirror then say to my self let's have long life. :) :D  :D. . it s stupid idea, ai. You need to move ur own foot and hand. 

But....

I 60% get parkinson who need additional DOPhAMINE for my brain so my sensory can function normally. 

And doctor need  me to take MORPHINE in my body. :)  :D 

Good, I can kill my self without knife, but I need Morphine in the end of my Life or to end of my life.