I answered an anon hrs ago that I already felt almost desensitized with the lack of comments. Still, I wonder, are my fics really not worth commenting on? ^^" 😅 I already had this thought of retiring earlier this yr, and I only write nowadays just to satisfy my need to do so with the daily stress I encounter. Some even let me know they download my stuff but never told me any feedback like why are my works that trash. But srsly. You guys tell me my fics are gold, good, masterpieces (all to which I dont agree with but again, YOU said those things), and many other lies you told me but your lack of feedback, kudos and upvotes tell me otherwise hahaha you hv no idea how much it boosts my self confidence only to bring me down, down, down to the ground realizing how those arent true. Pls dont tell me things you dont mean i easily believe only to be disheartened oxndcldmck my anxiety seems to increase everytime i see how much my readership deteriorated in 2 yrs like how can this happen did i rly deteriorate do i rly write nowadays im sorry im so sorry i guess my efforts are not enough im so sorry i cant promise to do better as this is all i can do im just on this level this is the best that i can be im sorry i miss interacting with readers im like a mere reader nowadays i miss 2017 i love writing but it doesnt love me and i felt rly sad back in May to the point of temporary deactivation i shldnt hv came back and look at me rambling even tho i didnt drink and even though i dont usually do this im sorry for making i read this i just need to let it out

Edit: aorry fro rsmbling im on the verge of quite losing it with all the strsss i hv rn i just need to let it out as i rly feel the urge to do smth srupid rn