I didn't really know him, so I don't know why it hurts so bad. I guess I cared more than I realized... my life is a mess right now. When someone your own age, a teenager, someone with so much life ahead of them dies... It destroys every preconceived notion you have about life and makes you realize how vulnerable it really is. I went to school with him for 5 years, and now that he's gone... it just seems weird even if I never spent any time with him. He was always there, always smiling. His existence in my every day life was familiar. If my heart broke because of his death... I can't even imagine the pain his family and friends are feeling right now.

I'm sorry about the long wait for updates, I am working on them as much as I can given the circumstances. I just need some time to put myself back together again.