This is not a Thank you and a Good bye letter. I'm not writing to post like what most fans are feeling right now the moment you finally admitted the truth. I'm not here to defend you for all of your actions as I believe you were in the capacity to think what is right and wrong the moment you agreed on sticking that needle onto your arm.

I'm not sure if fate is just being hard on you or is it karma finally gets a bite at you but I'm awfully feeling sad and heart-broken for you.

I must say, you are one heck of a lucky guy because you aren't facing my wrath.

I'm already exhuasted. I truly am.

The lawsuit and all the scandals and issues right after had burnt me to the core that I need to distance myself only to find out that me and the fandom was more damaged than what I initially expected.

I always thought that you are a troublemaker since 2010 when I got introduced to DB5K. I'm not sure why but my instincts placed you on that direction and sadly, it makes sense now and I tell you, I'm disappointed that it has to be true. Can we go back in time and fixed it?

I was disappointed but I feel so sorry and sad for you.

The disappointment?

I hope you understand that some people when they were young, some of them are looking at you and admiring you as their role model. I know this isn't your fault that your life is not really a life of your own the moment you decided to sign those papers in SM ent. You are a public figure and as much as you enjoy your privacy, you know you really can't.

I feel sorry and sad to you and your family.

This time you've done an irrecoverable mess. It saddens me seeing how you looked helpless while your family suffers on the consequence of your action. I'm not sure what happened to you but I feel so sorry. I truly am but what is done cannot be undone. You were already doing better and I have this confidence in you that you can thrive after your ungraceful fall without my full time support as a fan.

But here we are, you are in the deepest pit I guess and I feel so helpless because there isn't a way to help you. I'm not speaking these words of compassion because I was your FAN. I'm speaking as human who just happen to care and that's all i can spare. 

I guess you choose the wrong people to be with you during the lowest point of your life and during those times, you probably made the wrong decisions. I wasn't your diehard fan but I love you just as much as I love the other 4 people behind DBSK. I'm hurting because you've made the worst decisions in your life and it cost you everything. I'm sad knowing this might be the last time i will see you in the world wide web and hearing you again. I don't want to think of it this way but is there other way?

No more lies please. I understand you are afraid of exposing yourself but look what it cost you. it cost you everything. Needless to say, people would want to forget you along with all the lies you've made.

Your exit was so hard to take in and even now, it is so hard for me digest, accept and move on from it. Frankly speaking, what you've done in the past and now is unacceptable and there is nothing we can do to undone it or reversed it but i always have a hope for people. I hope that you also have a hope and faith that you can still be the best version of your self and you can thrive again. There will always be bad eggs in a group but it doesn't mean bad eggs cannot make a good difference.

I wish I could say it outloud to you because that tattoo on your chest had taught me to "Always keep the Faith" and I'm keeping my hopes up and praying for you that you will find yourself and thrive to become a better person. I'm waiting for the day that i will be able to see you again as a better Yoochun who is worthy of reclaiming the place you left and wasted.

There are many people that did worst than you but they thrived and changed to become a better person. It is not always a Tragedy. It doesn't have to be.

Hope that will make sense to you. You cannot undo what is in the past but you can always control your present and what will become of your future. 

I have my hope and i pray that people will forgive you and accept you again. You said before time heals everything. I hope time will do you good.

Until then, I'm keeping my hopes up and see you again in a good light!