try to be more positive and try to do good things with your life i wished i could be 23 again or 9 years younger then that i would do thing so differently i would try to me a much better person than the one i am now . enjoy your youth and live and want to live for as long as you can the next day is not promised to any of us

You'll have heard this all before, but if you do something to hurt yourself or kill yourself, you won't get to find out if you're single. You won't find love, you won't find happiness, you won't be able to do the kind of dumb with your friends that ends up being those awesome stories you tell when you're in your 50s. You won't be able to see the world, you won't be able to get wasted, you won't be able to do any of that. You'll be dead.

Death ends everything. There's no restart when you're dead. There's no second chance. There's no do-over. That's it. There's death or not death. There's no option to kill off just the bad crap you've got to deal with. There's no setting to switch off the bad things and keep the good things. Once you're dead, everything goes. Bad things disappear, but so do the good things. Your hopes, your dreams, your future, your prospects, your own worth. If you kill yourself, you're saying you don't want to go out and give a to your friends on a drunken night out. You're saying you don't really want to travel the world, to see beautiful sights, to find love, to find happiness. If you hurt yourself in an effort to kill yourself, you're saying you don't deserve to feel happiness. You're saying you want to feel pain, that you want to feel sorrow, that you want to feel hurt. You're saying that because you're hurting yourself.

I know, right now, that you don't really want to die. Whatever it is that makes you think about the possibility of dying or hurting yourself by hanging out of car windows, you don't want to die from it, you want to end the bull you're facing. You want to end the crap you've got going on. Life isn't crap. It isn't bull. But it's also not the greatest gift from whatever deity may or may not exist. Life is the time between being born and dying, and every single moment of that is up to you. It is filled with everything you bring to it, everything your friends bring to it, your parents, your teachers, your idols, your neighbours, your doctors, your babysitters. Everything and everyone has an impact on your life. YOUR life. You own it. You are responsible for it. And sometimes, life throws something at you that makes you wish you were ing a llama because it would probably be more enjoyable. But you will get through it. It will pass. It won't pass on its own, it won't disappear on its own, you may need help, you may need someone to talk about it with, you may need someone there to hold your hand and listen to you cry, and that's fine. But you can and you will get through it. It feels like you won't, but you will.

Because if you don't, you end up taking your own life. And taking your own life means no chance of travelling. It means no possibility of finding love. It means no prospect of having a treasure trove of embarrassing stories. It means everything you wish would happen in the next nine years to make turning 23 an awesome experience is guaranteed never to happen. If you want to travel the world, if you hope to find someone, if you want to go out and do dumb things like give s, being dead stops that instantly. Life isn't always fair, I wish it was. But if you find the right people, get the right things around you, you will see 23, you will see 43, you will see 93, and you will love every minute of it. It isn't always fair, and the problems may get bigger, but inside every person with problems is a better solution that means they can pass out whilst giving a drunken to a friend and lover while on holiday in paradise.

That person exists in you. That person IS you. Don't forget that.

Don't hurt yourself, and don't kill yourself. You deserve your dreams, no matter how much tomorrow throws at you.

9 years from now I’ll be 26 going on 27...That feels so far, but I know it’s nearer than it seems.

I hAd tO uSe A cAlCuLaToR tO mAkE sUrE mY CaLcUlAtIonS wErE RiTe
u 14???
WOOOOOOOOW My 21 years old self is shook. 9 years is so long from now on but it'll feel like a week, I'm sure XD

Good luck with your future XD

^^ Impressive. Please try not to die.