My curent boyfriend said I am like a 5 years old girl. And that i am too distant. I'm not affectionate enough. 

I just feel very sad and depressed. 

Always getting unnoticed as a writer. Not being able to get on with my passion. And write more stories for children. I look at them and feel I don't have enough time to succeed. 

My mon said i am nothing without this job.  I even started to tear up after I went out from my job. My eyes stung really badly and i barely kept them open to see where I am walking. I met my dad and he helped me cross the street towards our home. 

I think dad really has given some thought to it at least. I told him I can't see. The disturbance died down after I came home. 

.Really, am I worthless without this job? Am I worthless if I don't want to show some skin or some feeling?? 

I think the last ex boyfriend left me because he couldn't deal with such a depressed person whose life has little to no diversity. I can't get a hold of him anymore too. 

I was old and depressed, too far, really a bad thing for him. 

I honestly just want to cry and hug something. I am really hurt and this is a death causing wound. Too strong it overpowers every else.

Yet other people don't understand why I would be feeling so hurt. 

My workmate said she's sick of me talking about dying. What else would you expect me to feel??