I am sad lonely and hurt, a voice in my head keeps saying im not good enough and that i'll never be , i dont know what to do , i don't have any motivations anymore to do anything , i barely eat and i all i do is sleep and listen to music , i dont have friends at school that i could tell them how i feel , i only have online friends that hardely care about my well being , and they all have lifes to live, i'm on hold all the time , i'm not secound or third i'm all the way at the back of the line , i'm lost and i'm trying to find a way to get out of this black hole in my life but it keeps pulling me ...

I keep thinking how would my life be if i wasn't me , if i wasn't the same , if i was more cheerful and if i was an actuel good company ... they are just dreams ....