Here I am. Actually I don't know what must I write. Simple but not realy simple for me. When I want to say something to my family l, my friends but I'm so afraid that what happen just make it bigger and bigger. When I don't want to make my self feel happy, I know you will say I'm SO STUPID. But, when I hurt my family's heart you all will judge me.

So, when I stay in between that problem WHAT WILL U SAY!!! 

FOR ME, RIP TO MY LIFE IS BETTER. And not only for this day I always PRAY TO THE GOD!

"IF THIS LIFE-SUSTAINING CAN MOVE TO THE SHORTEST LIVE OF SOMEONE, JUST GIVE IT TO HIM/HER. JUST MAKE THIS LIVE SHORT FOR ME! I HAVE DO WHAT U WANT, GOD! AND WHAT AGAIN!!!! U WANT ME TO END IT WITH MY SELF?!?! 

My tear have been dry, God! I just always cry for all people I have hurting! I PUT THE BIG PAIN TO MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, AND...AND YOU KNOW!!! AND WHAT ELSE~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!

I DON'T NEED PEOPLE SORRY OR PITY TO ME!!!! I WANT YOU STOP THIS DILEMMA OF THE FU*KING FEEL. STUPID!!!! STUPIDDD SO~~~~~~~~ STUPID!!!!

THANKS GOD!!!!!! AFTER THIS, I STILL WANT YOU TO MEET ME WITH.....YEAH YOU KNOW!!!! I.WANT.TO.BE.WITH.YOU KNOW!!!!

U MUST PAY IT ONE DAY!!!!! I HAVE DO WHAT U ALL WANT!!!! AND I WANT..... DIE!