Hello, it's me, it's been a while since I've last written a blog post huh

But I've noticed something lately and I feel like I want to get it off my chest. 

It's about some comments I receive on some stories of mine. As you know, and as I always say, I really appreciate comments and I really appreciate it when people tell me what they think of the story so far, when they guess what will happen next, or anything of the sort. Comments are the greatest drive a writer can get to inspire them to write more.

However, unfortunately, there are also a lot of comments that also don't seem to have that effect on me. I know many people don't mean it negatively, I know it's because they want to read more, but in their excitement to ask me when I'll be updating certain stories next, some people tend to come off as really inconsiderate and rude. Reading comments like that truly kills any motivation I have to write.

I have gotten numerous comments asking me 'what are you doing? why are you not updating?'. It's because I study, it's because I have so much work to do that I barely have time to write.

I did have some free time some days ago, and I posted a new story. ChanKai. It was written as a gift for a friend of mine. Instead of just ignoring the story (not just on aff, on ao3 too), I got people asking me why I am writing ChanKai instead of KaiSoo. Because ??? that's what I felt like writing at the moment.

Another thing I notice is people going on my other stories to comment about the chaptered ones they want to see updated. You have no idea how disappointing it is to see a notification for a new comment on some story you put a lot of time and effort in, a not so popular story, and then to open that comment and see it is another demand for an update of another story. It's just really...idk, disappointing? 

Because writing, for me, it's not a job. It's something I do for fun and have desided to share with other people. However, having some of those people act like this, as if the only thing I'm doing in my life is writing fanfics, it's truly disheartening because as someone who creates that content i had been hoping people could be more understanding of the fact that I am a human with a life that goes beyond just aff. 

I'm sorry if this comes off as rude. Again, this is only meant for that handful of comments that seemed to upset me. Every other comment puts a big smile on my face, it truly makes me happy. I am in no way generalizing, I just really wanted to rant about it because it's been piling up for a while now. 

I just wish people could think about what they write before actually posting it, I wish they'd consider how their words, even if they're all good hearted, could affect others reading them. 

SO yeah....with that being said, I'll repeat this here again. I'm NOT abandoning any stories, I'll finish all my chaptered fics. I've promised you this a long time ago.

ANd I will. Just please let me work on it at my own pace.