Opologize and Confession (This is just venting, don't have to read..)

Hi.

I have something to admit. A couple of people poked to have asked me about my father. 

He is the reason why I am taking Anti-depression medicine, or as I call them, "Happy Pills." A month ago, my mom and Dad ( my step-dad, who I basically consider to Ben my actual father.) left the house for a few days for a small get away, leaving me alone. 

That was the first night, that I cut myself. 

I am not doing this for publicity, just being honest. I hurt myself to make a stronger pain to focus on. I am the daughter of a man who deserves to be in serious trouble. 

I have recently figured out that I have another half brother, Gavin, who honest to God may not even know I exist. That's hurts. 

My cousin recently passed away due to being hit by a drunk driver. 

I've lost a very close friend to death. 

 I figured out why my Grandfather has been to the ER so many times, he has severe Lung Cancer. 

 

I have severe depression, and a seriously ed up life. 

Thank you for reading, I appreciate it, a lot. 

 

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sleepingprince
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You have been through alot lately. Things must be really hard for you but do know that you will never be tested for something that you cant handle. Everything happens for a reason .

No matter how rough / hard it may seems like , soon it shall passed too. Nothing stay the same forever just so as to all your pain and sadness. Please do not hurt / harm yourself in anyway . Try to find another way to released . Instead of focusing on the pain , try to keep yourself busy doing things that you like so that you will not have the time to think about sad / negative stuff.

Your grandfather needs you . I am sure he wouldnt want you to hurt yourself in anyway. You can help him by giving him moral support and encouragement so that he can recover .

I'm sorry for your loss. May your cousin rest in peace. I know its hard when you lost a family but you can always live up to his / her legacy . Since its your cousin , he / she must be young. You can remember your cousin in a beautiful way by living your life to the fullest and doing things that your cousin havent got the chance to fulfilled.

Life is precious despite of all the challenges and test. Be kind and love yourself . Do seek for all the help and support from the professional if you need. Know that your purposed in life is much bigger than your test. Stay strong. I hope you'l feel better soon