STOP TO BE A TRAINEE

I don't know to whom this letter. Sometimes, I write it to my beloved girl who so amazing make my heart melted. Or, when I feel give up, I will write a letter to my father who have, RIP,. why must he? Cuz he will never come to scolding me hahaha. And Now, I write a letter. Strange letter as my plans to solve my problems.

So, the basic problem was a week ago, I failed in CS exam and It mean I must comeback as a trainee yeah. I have been a trainee since 9years ago.

And cuz my job as a trainee is not so keep my future bright, it makes my sister and brother want me to stop to be a trainee. Aizzz it makes me so sad. It hurt me so hard.

They use our mom condition as a reason. So, they want me to stay at home and keep my mom. Yeah,,, I know, It cuz my job is not so important for them. Yeah.... I hope, sOKmeone give me a good job and I will promise will work hard. Aaaarrrr it always makes my heart want to stop beating. Oh God, it so hurt...

And I have try my best but I think it just useless.

So, I have some plans. It a bit dramatic and maybe will make my life harder then now. But, I think no more harder then my condition now. Yeah... I give up...

Plan A I will join Fun!Japan and when I get my ticket, I will go and then never comeback. I hope I get a job there.

Plan B I will collect some money and will sale all my investation in some place. It just a little investation. Maybe it just 300-400 dollar singapore (hahaha yess I'm not a rich woman) and I will go to other country and work not in office but maybe in a place where my family didn't want me work there. But I will say to my family that I work in a office. Hahahaha

Plan C Yeah,this is an extreme plan. curious about it? Yeahhhh

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Kim6Ex #1 Nov 21, 2018 17:11:01

thank you so much... I m so thanks for all l, u care me even U didn't know me more than a user in this acc. I'm sorry cuz I m so stubborn. But, please just listen to me cuz it will makes me more bettef when I write all my stress here. Once again, thanks so much, friends :'(

Kim6Ex #2 Nov 21, 2018 17:07:19

thank you for ur advice. Ubr right. I need so many preparing for it not just language but more than that. But, I give up talking about job to my family. Example, for the simple job in my region, they didn't give me chance, so how about working abroad. They just know me that I will go as a tourist with my friends then I will stay for awhile there. Yes, I know it a bad plan, but, .... ahh... I don't know how to solve it again. Better I shut up in front of them. They will never listen to me :'(

sleepingprince #3 Nov 20, 2018 16:10:26

I think maybe you can discuss it with your family . Tell them that your dreams are important for you . You are your own person . They cant force you to give up on your work / dream.

About working abroad , I think you need to reconsider about the current economic situation world wide. You need to be prepared in many ways like learning the language in advanced , have certain skills / qualifications , extra savings , and etc.... These days its quite dangerous to just go like that depending on the country. Alot people got scammed and they cant go back to their home country. Thats something you need to be very careful about .

I think you need to think and plan properly before making any big decisions. Try to talk amd discuss things with your family. All the best to you. Stay strong