okay hello

it's been a while since i've really been on aff. everytime i have an update in my notifications, it's for the rp im an admin at, so to me, aff is a little bare right now (which is obviously not the case if there are 9382309 stories getting featured a day ??). LIKE it's crazy to me how i have 0 updating stories and 0 active subscriptions and i'm not currently writing anything (ok well i have these story that i started but i never finished it bcos i got lazy HAHA but the story is still up : /). 

if you're still ??? alive ?? lmk LOL like ok. i drafted all my blogs from 2012-2015 because they were all embarassing. i think i left like 4 of them still public. and then i also drafted all of my old stories/shifted them to my alt. account because I CAN'T HAVE PEOPLE TRACKING ME AND KNOWING THAT I WROTE THOSE EMBARASSING STORIES. like WHAT WAS EVEN MY WRITING IN 2013 ???? honestly, it's nice looking at the differences between my 2013 writing and my 2014 writing and my 2015 writing because WOW that contrast though. big shout out to kris (is she even here anymore : /) for being my big writing inspiration. honestly without kris, I WOULD'VE NEVER CHANGED THE WAY I WROTE. WHICH IS SO HARD TO WRAP MY HEAD AROUND BUT IT'S TRUE.

anyways, i should go back to my work. i miss the thrill of getting a new notification telling me that one of my subscriptions were updated, or a friend request, or that i got a comment. someone plz take me back to 2013. growing up really does dampen reality a lot. i rmb when i used to just be able to read any ol' story and just have a good time staying up all night doing nothing and commenting on EVERY single story i read, etc etc. now it's not so simple. it's a sad time when i wanna change my username but i only have 37 karma points bcos im no longer active LOL.

ok bye