so, this is the first time im logging into this account in a while. it took ages, but i finally got myself to do it. ive updated 7 months, but i havent decided if im going to publish any of the drafts i was working on in my hiatus. i probably wont. frankly, i dont think ill be logging back in either. i had some unfinished business, but other than that, i wont be reading any more fanfics on this site. i love bigbang with all my heart, and i always will, but taking a month to myself turned into two months which turned into 7, and now i dont know how to get myself back into my vip routine. i didnt think their enlistment would hit me this hard, but damn, i was going thru it. im okay now, im better, and hopefully ill stay better. but my better was working well away from this site, so i think thats how im going to stay. i feel sorry for my unfinished fic, i really did love that concept. maybe one day ill write more. maybe one day ill post snippets of my unfinished drafts. maybe one day. but for now, im going to disappear back into the wind.