As you may know I have a new fic! I wrote about Shownu and Kihyun from Monsta X, i’ve been really loving Monsta X lately, i’ve always liked them but lately they got me on a whole new level lmao! Yeah just wanna say check out that fic. 

I just felt like rambling a bit. I remember like 4-5 years ago I was reading fanfics ALL the time, I feel like I actually grew a lot from reading, because usually they contain a lot of personal experiences from the writers as well as the romance and stuff. My English improved insanely much from all the reading, but honestly fanfiction is pretty awkward and not very morally correct I guess? like the concept is very cool, but it’s mostly all about kinks and what us writers like romantically and mostly ually.. I know it is kind of “not right” to love it THIS much, but that’s just how it is, I ing love fanfiction, mostly gay, idk why and I can’t help it. I feel like actual gay men might take offense by this, i’m not trying to ualize gay relationships or anything, and i’m not saying every male idol is gay or that I want them to be, it’s just something I randomly like (and a ton of other people randomly like). It’s very weird YES, but I don’t think it’s that bad, like why does it offend some people so much? if someone has a kink for girls with mental illnesses or some like that I wouldn’t mind or take offense by it, like it’s called a “kink” for a reason and everyone has some kind of kink. K-pop and fanfiction makes me ing happy and I want to stop being ashamed of it. I’ll never be one to walk around shouting “I LOVE GAY FANFICTION”. Because that’s a bit TOO MUCH. But if the subject comes creepin I don’t want to feel ashamed saying that yes I like fanfics. Honestly fanfiction has actually helped me in a lot of ways, as previously stated, my English is better, i’ve gained more empathy for other people struggling. Some writers are sooo good at describing a character and I get so deep into it it’s insane. I don’t know what I wanted to say with this it’s just a ramble, and my firstblog post in literal years haha. I missed this! Like I had like a whole year off from reading fics, I read ACTUAL books instead, that is great too. Oh but I did read some non-kpop related fanfics, like the most random ships in the whole world from weird animated shows.... But yes now i’m back bot reading and writing fics after so long, it feels great, I missed it so much. A LOT has been going on in my life I can’t even comprehend it myself.. Everything is weird and ed up. But I wanna keep doing what I love! As long as i’m not hurting anyone it can’t be that bad right? I’m a nasty gall but dats okayyy right