You know that feeling when you just want to disappear? — but you don’t actually want to die? It’s like wanting to have break from everything but also having the right to come back hoping you’d be in a better situation. It’s kind of different because it’s not just taking a break from certain things, it’s literally wanting to have a pause button cause everything is moving too quickly for you. And why doesn’t that pause button exist?!

It’s in the point where it’s not even saddening anymore, everything’s just frustrating the hell out of you. Then insecurity tags along and drags its negativity squad while you can’t do anything about it. Everybody’s leaving you one by one and if not that they end up being pushed away by yourself. Either way, you lose everyone and it’s the saddest part because again, that pause button doesn’t exist. Then after a couple of days you kind of just regret pushing those people away because they were the ones who would have likely stayed if you didn’t push it. While you’re currently being stared at by those people who only stayed by your side when you were okay.

Like I dont understand? Why do people leave once you’re not happy? Isn’t that supposed to be the time where they should be staying by your side? I need the pause button — it’s all too frustrating.