Me.
I've been feeling this for how long. I don't think i can still take it. I'm tired lying o being happy everyday. Tired of those dirty stares given by my mother. I'm like in a family but I'm not part of them. I'm an outcast. My life is so unfair. My mother was always biased on my two older brothers. Well my father, sometines he cared i can feel it. But most times, no. Because he loves my mother more than I. I know that. I'm locked up into this house. I wanna get out. But I don't know where will i go. My second family my mothers older sister's family. I considered them as my second home. But now I don't feel like it anymore. My uncle told me i was his favorite niece. But what's happening? I'm feeling leftout anywhere i go. Sometimes I'm thinking to end my family's suffering because of me. I plan to kill myself. Maybe, just maybe. If i die i could see if they care. I they will cry even if I'm nk longer ib flesh. I just to experience how a mother cry because of her daughter. I also want to be special in her eyes.
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Sorry I'm really sorry. I just want to burst out. Please don't bash me
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