Admist the falling leaves , at dusk with the sun shimmering over the blue sky . The crimson sky above my head with silver clouds highlighting orange I could see the entire world beneath me .The peak , the slanting peak where  only I could stand and see everything I left behind on my way up  . The temptation that drove me to the edge , trading my laughters for perfection , memories for excellence . I am the pioneer , the invincible , the unbeatable . The world looked so tiny , the limits above my head were flaunting their untamed head high . The intractable me who seperated myself from every other thing for the sake of fame . The only thing that kept me going was the thought  of their faces when I prove them wrong . I sacrificed my happiness to see the guilt decorating their faces once I win , traded my desires to make them regret them every laugh they stifled or had on my expence . Being queer isn't easy , deviating from the sane , the normal . I saw it , saw it all , the concern in her eyes for my future , the distress he had for me even making myself capable to even stand in this world . They didn't know I never woukd