I want to lose weight but I'm no where near motivated. I used to be so into dieting and exercising but idk what the happened to that drive. Relied on emotional eating too much and still am. I just feel like starving myself if I can't eat what I want. 

The only thing I know I could get some motivation is from my deep insecurity..sighs though it'll probably affect some personal relationships. 

Man life sure is tiring, wish I can do what I have to do so I can leave peacefully