So it's been a long time since I've updated my blog post on aff, I swear the new school is really making me crazy. I'm so busy that I'm in rush for every second!

Especially now that I am a probate. No, it's not that probate, This 'probates' is a term for prefect - to - be or a prefect in training. And I study in a fully residential school so the prefects job here are more.... complicated. We have to start our duty from 5:35 in the morning until 11 at night!

That's not all. Since my high school transformed into a secondary school few years ago ( my batch is the last batch to enter in Grade 9) I'm new here. It's not even 4 months yet. So there are people that look down upon us.

My anxiety and depression is recovering, but I'm scared it will come back. I just cannot simply tell anyone about my problems even to the councelor since everyone here can't keep their mouth shut. And that's frustating since there's no one to  share my problems with. I'm sooo confused. Is it better when I had severe attacks before but I have someone to lend her shoulders or when you are finally happy and relaxed enough but you have to keep your frustation inside??

honestly I still have a lot to say. We'll see, maybe I'll update more soon. because honestly I feel completely released when I tell my problems here :)