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—POSTED 28.04.18–

Dear Brayden-oppa,

I am here to write this blog for you. Why? Because you honestly deserve it. I... Actually, heh, I wouldn’t be as open and social on here if it weren’t for you. I was just being a stupid thirteen year old and posting stupid feed posts and stories that I’ve now drafted. But, whether you friended me or I friended you, you started talking to me. It may sound pathetic, but I was really grateful and happy because I’m used to people not liking me in person or online, either because my visual impairment or my strange personality.

I still posted stupid, weird, emo, cringeworthy feed posts but you commented on them. You introduced me to so many nice people! Like Grackie and Jimminniee, who got me and other people to make similar posts for you.

You are such a kind person, even when you are hurting. You don’t push people away by spite like many others do. You push them away out of fear. You love them too much for them to get close to you. You don’t want to hurt anyone. You love people and expect nothing in return. You make sure people know you care. Like in my feed post when I all of a sudden went from sunshine and rainbows to depressing storm clouds. (Y’know, the post where I questioned why people make blind jokes at my expense and how I don’t like being reminded that I’m going blind because I’m treated as an object or a toy by people? Yeah, that one.) Yeah, you were ready to kill... Haha!

If I write a feed post where I’m genuinely hurting and mentally and emotionally in pain, which has been more often, you are always the first to reply to it. It shows you really do care! All these people telling you to die and saying no one loves you are jealous! Do you know why? Because you are amazing and have so many people to love you while they have black, shrivelled-up hearts of stone.

Don’t listen to them, oppa. Keep being you because people like you are so rare. Don’t let them hurt you because if they hurt you, they hurt me! I haven’t known you long and cannot tell you your favourite colour but I can tell you how different you are than what haters think. Please don’t hurt yourself because of them.

I’m not asking you to pretend your disorder isn’t there because that’s like me trying to walk through Hot Topic without my cane or my mom with me. I’m just telling you that I want you to be strong around haters. I know from tons of experience that when you show a weakness, they’ll choose that to break you with.

You are an amazing author and a caring person and you are so kind and the world needs more people like you! Always remember: The world is never fair to good people. And you are a good person.

If I could take your disorder away from you, I would. Even if that meant I’d have it instead, I would. I have so many issues, what’s one more gonna change?

We all love you and care for you. We all are here for you. Whether you trust me enough to talk to me when you are in pain or not, I’m here for you. I promise, I’m not going anywhere.

Oppa, I’m not an easy person to read because I put up a semi-permanent block on myself. I spend more time learning about people without talking to them. I learn pieces of info and remember them from conversations I’ve had with that person in the past. I have trust issues from being betrayed many times by “friends”, so I won’t put my heart out there. But you do. Even in pain or in fear, you offer your heart. Even if you barely know/trust people, you offer to them your heart.

Because you are kind and genuinely care.

So those haters that say you should die can stop. You know why? Because we all genuinely care for you as well. We love you.

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♥️SugaDaddyMinVKook♥️

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