i desperately need to get this out of my system before i ing combust so don’t mind me 

i’m exasperated. and angry. really angry. 

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first off, if you’re going to be a passive aggressive confrontationalist, at least put some ing effort into, idk, actually confronting me face to face? and don’t even bother with the whole “oh, this isn’t about you” thing because both you and i know that’s bull. 

secondly, you’re reading way too much into what i say. like trust me, it isn’t that deep. i never said you aren’t strong or that you need to be treated like an ancient, fragile vase that’s easily broken and is irreplaceable. you’re very much replaceable. and when i said things that need to be treated with delicacy must be treated with delicacy, i don’t mean you as a whole person. i meant the topics you’re sensitive about. 

and you can miss me with all that dark side bull. because its you that’s scared of confronting your dark side. you don’t seem capable of being able to accept the fact that maybe you aren’t?? such??? a perfect???? person????? you have more issues besides just your disorder; issues that can easily be resolved. and that’s okay! because no one is perfect!! these issues can only be resolved when you come to terms with them. buT whenever someone tries to bring that “dark side” up, you get triggered. this is what i’m talking about. every attempt i make to genuinely and effectively help you, ends up coming off as offensive to you. i’m tired of that. 

the next thing i want to address is your strange sense of entitlement. i can’t comprehend what makes you think you have any right over my attention, especially after the you pulled. you have offended me on more occasions than one, but i still kept my calm and didn’t make a huge deal about it because i kind of cared about your feelings. i can easily list all the offensive things you have said or done that have triggered me, but i won’t because i know that would hurt your feelings. but clearly you have no respect for mine. you think i don’t know about your shady feed posts about “fake ing friends” or declarations of “people i’m not expecting to friend me on here”? 

our friendship is not determined by the number of times i mention your name in my feed. it’s determined by the quality of conversations we have, but that’s clearly not attainable, because all you want to talk about is yourself. you know why i didn’t bring up my ‘triggers’? because you never gave me the ing chance to!!!! and just because i don’t worship the ground you walk on and have opinions that differ from yours doesn’t mean i’m a fake friend. on a side note, you calling me a fake friend is one of my greatest triggers. if you don’t like me, then why ing bother?? you’re the fake one here, if anything, because you post crap about me on your other accounts but claim to love me when directly talking to me. i didn’t ask for this. i really didn’t. 

you also clearly don’t have any respect for space. just because i didn’t respond to your message doesn’t mean i hate your guts. i have an actual life to live!! a life that doesn’t revolve around you!! and when i ask for space and distance, i don’t do it simply for dramatic measure. i actually kind of mean it. so don’t contact me using your other accounts because i feel suffocated and attacked. please and thanks.

i tried to help you, but you interpreted that as me trying to attack you or whatever. also i think you fail to understand that i’m not obliged to care, and there is absolutely no compulsion for me to give two s about you, but guess what, i still do. but you’re clearly misinterpreting that and the fact that i have to follow two accounts that are suited to your “moods” in order to prove my loyalty to you is absolutely disheartening. i don’t have any qualms about you creating these accounts because honestly? you can do whatever the you want to. but to think that you would “”blacklist”” me just because you couldn’t respect my decision is just. 

no thank you. 

no thank you, i don’t want you in my life anymore because you’ve actually made me feel manipulated. and used. i feel like garbage, because i couldn’t make you feel better. and you’re apparently pissed at me? for caring. and also because i couldn’t prove to you how genuine i used to be in caring for you. do you know what i’ve been through? no you ing don’t. so think twice before calling me a fake friend. 

i honestly can’t believe i’m losing my chill over something/someone like you. thanks for the stress ig