Hi, I want to die. Again.

This would be my first time. Putting it up in the web that i want to die.

I have this impulsive mind really. One thing i'm laughing watching idol variety shows next thing i lock myself up inside my room wanting to kill myself.

I choose to write in here cause no one really knows me irl . I have a problem. My parents, one nitpicking from them. Their words make me feel like I am a worthless piece of trash who doesn't deserve to talk, in a way that they don't seem fit. So here i am in my room all lock up and they are there outside laughing unaware of my personal troubles. My dad's threats even if he really doesn't do any of them, makes me depressed to the core. It really stays and builds up to grow bigger and bigger.

The heat from doing self-harm is just soooooo good to be a distraction. I'm sorry this place should be full of interesting stories and here i am writing a blog that contains that i want to die.

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sleepingprince #1 Feb 13, 2018 14:31:11

Have you tried to talk to parents and tell them how you feel honestly ? I think you should try find the right opportunity to have a heart to heart conversation with your parents. Do you have any siblings or any close friends who you can confide / share your burden with? If yes go to them . In life , no one is born worthless . Everyone have a purposed. You just haven't found yours yet . Never give in to negativity . You need to learn to trust and love yourself even more , even when others don't . As long as you don't give up , you can always change things for the better and prove to them that you're worth much more than what they think. If you try hard enough , some day dreams do come true . If you need help / protection in anyway , go find any trusted family adults like your grandparents , aunt and etc.. Don't hesitate to seek for help / treatment from the professional like therapist , Phychiatrist , counselor , social support group and etc if you need. Try to do some meditation to clam the mind . Eat food with lots of serotonin as it helps to make your mood better . Bananas helps to improve mood too. Exercise , eat healthy food and set a goal for yourself . Seek comfort from God and multiply your faith . Remember that , hurting yourself will not solve the problem. Please Give Life A Chance. This life is worth fighting for. Never give up. Stay strong