Hello to all my readers.

 

This is a message to all my orphans,

 

I have been on a hiatus as many people and fellow athours have.

I can thankfully say that my readers were very much respectful and understanding. I am very grateful for that. 

I know many of you are crusious to not only me but other writers as well,

....the big question 

Am I going to continue writing?

 

To be honest it was a long and very hard process to even think about an answer that seemes appropriate and takes my own thoughts into consideration. 

No matter the writer's answer. I ask you guys to please be understanding and accept wether or not any athours on any platform decide to not continue. Not just based on the recent tragic event but just in general. Everyone deserves that respect. 

 

Now that being said,

What bout me? this story and all posible future stories. 

 

Yes, 

I have decided to continue.

i will make another update when i decided i should upload 

thank you my orphans.

 

if you wish to stop here i completely understand but i have alot on my mind about the subject. 

When someone passes it can be very tricky.

 

I am going to be 100% honest about the fanfic culture right now. I have been reading online for a very long time. 

ive seen the shift in the comunities and the things that still remain. 

i think i will do a seperate blog on how i feel about fanfics in general but thats for another day. 

my point is...

 

i dont think im going to be so much of a reader on here anymore. i decided to start seeing what has happened after such a long time away and... im not happy. 

im seeing fics that have honestly disheartned me so much.

what im about to say doesnt go for every authour/reader in the past but im talking about currently. 

the recent fics where Jonghyun is this abusive, craized, lunatic,that involve blood as lube and other disgusting things that basically violates key and it's seen as romantic .... that upsets me. 

i understand there are VERY young writers that dont understand concepts this big. or what is in general. 

but any violent act i write is not seen as romantic. it's like watching a car acident right before your eyes. 

ive also seen people pull key into this saying that "it was all his fault". "key should have saved him" "it's all because of key that jonghyun is dead now." 

i... i cant even count how many accounts i have reported. 

please becareful when it comes to reading on here, it's the internet and it could be quite unforgiving and insensitive. 

 

as for me

i think it is ok to continue still writing about someone even if they had passed. 

when it comes to villianizing jjong, , suicide, or other genres of fanfics... thats depends on the reader. im not a fan but i do think that if its a great story than maybe it can help people cope. ive seen some that show the progress in shinee. getting back on their feet learning to be happy again. im sure that is helping lots of people. 

 

when it came to kibum and his grandmother's death, many people stil included her in their stories. because she was a source of hapiness. she was light and it made us feel more conected to her. 

i think the same with jjong. 

in my story he is a hero. 

in life he was an amazing person, an actual angel. 

his legacy and brightness was real. and yes if writing is wha makes you happy and by all means continue.

especially if you talk greatly of his name. 

 

again i want to thank you so much orphans for sticking with me. 

i  promise i will come back better than ever with more passion than before. 

i will update soon on when the next upload will be. 

 

-Nova.