*writes here randomly* id actually k why i’m writing here, prolly bc only a few ppl can read this and most are people idk personally so its fine with me to say something personal (not really) here. it’s 7:15 in the morning and i’m supposed to be getting ready for my internship but i feel so devastated that i don’t care whatever might happen in my life anymore. i’ve been feeling this in a while that i just wanna share it somewhere, heol. i’m trying not to look seeking for attention but i think i need that hahahaha : ((( yesterday, the only thing that makes me feel like i’m actually  someone who knows what to do in her life turns out to be something i can’t do in a while y e t  and that made me feel something like this, lmao. this is just a cute problem but it affected me so much. i wasn’t able to enroll in this school— the only school and the only thing i am willing to attend and do with all my heart but i cant even do it, hahahahaha. i needed some encouragement, some people did encouraged and cheered me up , yes but those people i am expecting to do it didn’t and that made me feel even worse. hahahahahahahahaha i even actually feel that some people only talk to me bc they need to but they actually dont want to and i just ahsbsjdbdkkslskf i dont usually write such things here but it feels like its gonna explode, i’m crying inside of me for real.

ps. i dont need any reactions or something like you feel sorry or whatever. 

pps. and no, don’t talk to me just bc you read this, i don’t need pity hahahaha i need love okay 

-i didn’t said too much but i’m prolly gonna regret writing this and delete later