it's almost 11pm here,, and i feel so tired.

I've been through a lot, i don't even know where to start but i just want to rest.

to disappear.

to be gone.

It pains me that i've already got to the point that i'm pushing everyone i love just to be alone,, to feel okay.

It's wrong, I know that but they make me feel so suffocated that I just want to die and be gone.

I'm miserable.

I'm hopeless, useless even my mom says it to my face.

I want everything to disappear. 

Please. Help me.