It's been days...

Days since we lost him...

It just dawned on me, how much I miss him...

Maybe many of you don't know, I've always been his fan. Since the start.

I miss him so much...

When I first heard the news, I wasn't able to cry, shock overtook me. I didn't believe it, couldn't believe it.

Second day, I stared into emptiness, I felt empty, like a blank page.

Third day, as a song resonated in my room that night, I just realized...

It is true... He's not here anymore.

I cried, cried so much, he suffered so much, he had the same burden as me and I never wanted that for him at all... 

I miss him so much...

But somehow I know, he's free of pain, he may be happy up there...

Somehow I know he's up there guiding us.

In your life here, you've been an inspiration, but now, you're a guardian angel.

Rest easy, Jonghyun, my love. You've done well, you've touched the world, and now you're an angel.

We'll always love you.