It's really sad to see such a young man leave this world too early. So many reasons could've contributed to the cause of him taking his life. I feel for all his family, friends, and Shawols. I have listened to SHINee and I loved his voice. I didn't even know what happened until I saw some posts about him passing away. I thought it was a joke, as seeing I've seen many posts on Facebook where there were fake posts about some singers and/or actors passing away, only to find out that it's not true. But, then I was finding posts about him passing away on AFF and Facebook, and then realized that it was true. My heart hurts whenever I see videos on YouTube of everyone paying their respects to Jonghyun. It's still unreal that he is gone, and it's got to be REALLY tough for his family as seeing it's so close to the holidays. 

Even though it's been, five months since Chester Bennington from Linkin Park took his life, I'm trying to keep my emotions in check. Chester was my favorite singer from Linkin Park and I wanted to see them in concert so much. I now see what it feels like to lose a singer that you loved. I got into Linkin Park when I was a Sophmore in high school. I loved their music and Chester's voice. It's going to be hard to listen to Linkin Park songs, knowing that Linkin Park will never be the same without Chester.

I feel it's the same with SHINee. The group will never be the same without Jonghyun. My heart goes out to everyone who looked up to Jonghyun and loved his voice. My heart goes out to the members of SHINee. 

I see all the Shawols sobbing and I read posts about how the Shawols were so distraught they couldn't think anymore. I wish that I could feel like that. My emotions are so different from everyone. When Chester passed away I felt choked up but wasn't sobbing. Though after seeing Jonghyun gone, my emotions are starting to show. I have to work today, so I think I have to find something to do to not think about the pain in losing Chester and Jonghyun. It's hard as seeing I have SHINee and Linkin Park songs on my iPod. So, hopefully, my emotions will be fine while I'm working.

Anyway, just wanted to post my feelings about losing Jonghyun, but also about losing Chester.

Let's remember all the happy times with Jonghyun and Chester.

Thanks,

Raven.