Im sorry, I know its been a long time already. I understand if anyone of you aren't here anymore. Its just that, idk how to explain what I felt rn.

A lot has change. Lets all accept that. So many people come and go already and we can't avoid that.

I could still remember how I always be fascinated by your voice. I was so new in Kpop, that was like 8yrs ago. SHINee songs were being played and your voice was like telling me to choose you to bias. 

Haven't seen your face yet that time but when I do know who's behind that angelic voice, I was like, "Yes, yes he is the one" and everything's change right after that.

I was so hard into this new world, not that I regret it. I wasnt prepared with all those feels when I saw you perform or just do random things. 

And then...

I cried when he got a girlfriend. Has anyone even remember that time? I got mad, sad and just cant focus on you that time. I couldnt handle the thought. Silly me.

Then time flies and it was back to normal. Or so I thought. You and ur gf broke up. So I promised myself to just be prepared for more gf to come. I did, really.

But I wasn't able to prep myself for this Jjongie.

Now you're gone and here I am crying again, hurting again and mad again. I'd rather have you get married to someone than be gone forever. You are too young. I know you still have a lot of dreams, not only for you but also for your family, friends and members.

But you wanted it. It was your choice. You asked to be let go. So I guess I won't be that selfish to still hold on no matter how you wanted to be happy. But please dont blame me for still thinking about you.

Kim Jonghyun, you will always be my first bias. You did well. I love you and til we meet.

Death is not the end but a ticket to another journey. Fly high baby.

My deepest condolences to the family and friends.