Kim Jonghyun.  My ultimate bias. The voice that brought me into the kpop world. The one who gave me my second family of Shawols. The one who stood up for the rights of others. The one whose voice would console us everyday on Blue Night. 

The one whose voice made me start smiling again. The one who showed me that it’s okay to be crazy, and that I would always be accepted in the SHINee World. The one who taught us to be more accepting of others. The one who took a stand. There will always be five shining stars. Always five. OT5 will last forever. 

When I heard, I refused to believe it. I can’t bear to think about it. You mean so much to me. Jonghyun, you made me a better person. SHINee made me believe in myself. I cried my eyes out. I couldn’t stop crying. You gave me so much. Friends, family, love. 

I wish we had known. I wish you hadn’t kept it to yourself. You will always remain in my heart. In all our hearts. You’re like oxygen to us. 

Jonghyun, my angel, you are in a better place now. Watch over us, Jonghyun. Watch over us all, and protect us. 

To Shawols, and others in the Kpop fandom, we stand together. Blingers.  MVP. Flamers. Lockers. Taemints. Shawol. SHINee. Forever. 

Depression is no joke. If you’re going through this, talk to someone. Please. 

Talk to me. For Jonghyun. For Shawol. For SHINee.