I've been a long time member on AFF and this is the first time I'm writing a blog,I thank all of you that took your time to view this as I feel extremely saddened by the news of Jonghyun's death.As a fan of Kpop since 2007,I would've thought that with news such as my favourite group,DBSK,splitting up,the passing of 2 Ladies' Code members EunB and RiSe,my favourite member in SNSD,Jessica,getting kicked out and a lot of the sad things that have happened in the industry within this 10 year span would have steeled me to the point where I would no longer feel saddened by any kpop tragedies,but today I am proven wrong.I am currently going through depression and as someone who has much,much less on his plate than Jonghyun while also under much less scrutiny than him,I still damn near committed suicide multiple times,and I still to this day regularly have thoughts of self-harm,so while my experience is meager compared to his,it helps me to put myself into his shoe to a certain extent.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    I understand if any of you are thinking something along the lines of "Suicide is never the answer/Suicide is for cowards","People who commit suicide are selfish and wasting a life granted to them by their parents",and I do not blame you for thinking like that,but depression is a serious thing and as cliché as this sounds,only someone who has been through it knows how it truly feels,what it's like to be on the verge of collapsing everyday.Although the family members of the deceased will experience indescribable sadness,we do not know how difficult it might be for him to deal with this pain another day.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     I hope you realize that while suicide shouldn't be encouraged,it is one of the many answers a person suffering has a right to choose,and we,as people who merely view them mostly through the internet do not possess enough understanding in his life to make a proper assesment of whether he was "selfish".I firmly believe that if it drove him to the point of suicide,although it might not make him 'happy' per se,he certainly is feeling better and in a better place as compared to while he was in our realm,so we should respect his decision.I do not know him personally but I do know that he is a fellow supporter of LGBT,and I respect that as not only did he make it known in a country as conservative as Korea,he publicly showed his support on twitter for the LGBT community despite the backlash that imminently followed.I also respect the fact that he wrapped up his concert before committing suicide,letting fans that waited with much anticipation see him in person,unfortunately for the very last time.                                                                                        

Rest in peace,Kim Jong Hyun,I will never forget the astounding vocal technique and charismatic aura you possessed.