So basically, I didn’t pass on my exam for one point. And it makes me want to give up. And I spent my whole day crying of anger and frustrated, knowing that I had nothing to do to change this stupid result. My friends tried to help so much and yes, I know I can do better but isn’t life so.. unfair? Sometimes, I look at other people and think like ‘why can’t I be like this?’ ‘why can’t i be lucky too?’ because even though some people may think, I am not lucky at all. Everytime i think i am doing ok, life comes and laughs at my face. This is how I feel. Frustrated, tired, I just wanted to be back at my home, my country with my family where I knew that things would be alright. But growing up alone is more difficult than people think, than I thought. I am physically and emotionally sick and I honestly don’t know how I am going to go through this. I hate the idea that things are slipping through my fingers, I hate not being able to predict what is going to happen, I hate not being mature enough to deal with problems - even though my friends say I am. But they don’t know me. It felt so awful when I discovered about this one point, it makes me think like ‘a stupid point that you didnt manage to get bc you are fcking dumb and unlucky’. No matter how much I try, my best is never the best. 

Like BigBang says, I am a loser. 

I’ve come too far, I am going home

I wanna go back to when I was younger