11-20-2017

Hey there!

I am pretty sure some of the people who’d be seeing this have seen my blog post ten days ago, entitled “I don’t know what to do now with my life” and now I kind of wanted to just post this blog to just to update you guys on what has been going on the past few days. Well, actually, what happened yesterday.

If you guys don’t know, the problem that I have encountered is that I’ve been suffering extreme sadness due to problems I am not even supposed to handle, causing me to fail my classes and I didn’t tell anyone about it. My mom found out and she told me it was fine, that I can just take it up after and all that. I didn’t tell my aunt (pretty much a long story, so to cut it short I am living with my aunt and her kids) and basically, she hates me lying to her and I am pretty sure everyone does hate liars. In the end, she and my uncle found out about my failing because I told them about it, what has been going on with me.

Their reaction?

I was actually very surprised with what happened. Instead of scolding me, they just consoled me. They asked me if I really wanted to continue the course I am taking currently or if I wanted to quit it and take up another course. Asked me what’s happening and then gave me a couple of advices. It was nice. Really. Knowing that they understood me. It made me so much better telling them how I felt. It feels great letting things out.

I do know it is hard speaking up, all I can say is that stop and breathe, release, then go. We need to hit pause at least once in our life and take a moment to load, but don’t take a break forever because nothing will happen if you would do so. For the past days, I’ve been reflecting over myself and my action and how I am going to solve all this mess I have gotten myself into. And yesterday I have finally decided to tell them what’s happening. I know there are lots of possibilities for the outcome, but you’ll never know if you’ll never do something, but whatever happens after, accept it. Don’t be scared to pause, but don’t also forget that at the end of the day you’d have to move forward.

Gosh, I’ve been shaking the whole time while writing this, that I wanted to cry because I was able to deal with the problem I had. This may not be serious to some of you, but this part of my life had thought me a lot of lessons and not just what I have mentioned earlier.

By the way, to the people who had commented on my blog, to the people who approached me, I’d like to thank you very much. You guys helped me a lot more than you guys think. Thank you. I know there are a lot heavier problems than this, but as of now, this had played a big part in my life and yes, my life journey is still not done and I am bound to encounter more, but still thank you. 

I guess that's all I have to say for now.

This has been me, Cielo.