Honestly I probably sound like a complaining little kid that is selfish and conceited.

I probably am acting like one too

I GET IT! I GET THAT I CAN't SUCCEED IN LIFE BECAUSE OF MY STUPID DUMB MIND
I JUST WANTED EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT
SO WHAT IF I DON'T WANT TO GO TO MED SCHOOL 
MAYBE I WANT TO PLAY INSTRUMENTS
NO

I DONT HAVE THAT CHOICE BECAUSE MY PARENTS THINK IT'S NOT A "REAL JOB"

I PROBABLY WONT EVER GO TO A CONCERT BECAUSE IT'S "STUPID"

AND PARTIES THAT YOUR OLDER SISTER GOES TO ARE "DUMB" AND SHE IS BEING IRRESPONSIBLE

AND I KNOW THAT SHE IS SO MUCH SMARTER THAN ME

BETTER THAN I WILL EVER BE

SO WHY CAN'T YOU JUST SHUT UP ALREADY BECAUSE I GET THAT

I realize how stupid and selfish I am right now.

My parents just want the best for me, but I just want to be selfish for once and get away with it

Maybe that's wrong, but honestly I don't care anymore

And I know that nobody will read this because I'm just a stupid little girl in the big world, that is probably the biggest moron you've ever know

So, this is me typing a blog that nobody will read

It's for myself

No, I'm not seeking attention

This is a getaway from the real world

a place that I can rant and nobody will care

I am so tired of trying

I keep thinking about what would happen if maybe I just didn't exist

Would it be better?

Maybe.

Probably.

Most likely.

Yes.

Yes, it would

I just feel like I don't know what to do with my life

and honestly, I'm tired of the bull everyone throws at me

I'm sorry. I'm so much better off than so much of the world, and here I am complaining

I really don't know what to do

Okay. Thats that

I sound like a dramatic little girl that doesn't understand life

okay

I'm done

sorry for troubling you

I will probably look back and feel embarassed

yeah, nobody will read

who would want to read something from someone as unimportant as me

okay

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