So my mom have been asking me why am I studying so much ? Actually I was just trying to write what I feel? I have a book where I write my thoughts , phrase or anything that inspire me .. I would always bring it around. Sometimes when people are talking and I heard some words I'll just write it down... I think I might have spent alot of time doing it... I watch TV I will do the same if there's any word that catch my mind, when I hear to songs as well ... I will repeat the same song for alot of time . And now I also read scripts of plays and etc to find beautiful words and to learn and see how people actually potray their thoughts? I have 3 notebook that are filled with words and stuff...   I don't know what is it but it's just one way for me to release stress .. I just feel good doing it so I don't feel that it's too hard as it was compared to real studies if it makes any sense ...