Untitled (Nope, this has nothing to do with GD's song... I just have no idea what to title this)
Okay, so I have a question for all my fellow writers out there. Do you find it easier to post your work online to let people read or do you find it easier reading your work in front of an audience?
I'm asking this, because of what happened to me today. Here's the story:
So, for the first time in front of a room full of people, I read a story that I wrote. The assignment for my Intermediate Fiction class was to write a two page story and then condense that two page story down to one page. When we got to class, Dr. Kardos has us go around the room and read the one page out loud and then talk about what we cut from the two pages to make it one page. I was the last one to read. Now, I'm not that big on having to speak in front of people (crazy because my major is Communications), because I get nervous. Usually, if I have to present something, I am able to speed through the presentation pretty fast before my nerves get the best of me. Sadly, it was a different story for today. As I was reading my story, I began to choke up and had to pause a few times just to get the sentences out. By the time I was done reading, my whole body was shaking. As I have said, I have been nervous before, but the shaking thing was new. I've never shaken like that after presenting something. I was still shaking five minutes after my reading was done. The only reason I can think as to why I was shaking that bad is because of the fact that I have never read my work to anyone, but my family. Reading to someone else literally frightened me. On a positive note, my class liked my story and the twist ending that I gave it.
As I mentioned in what happened to me above, I have never felt that way before. It had to be because I was reading something that was precious to me in front of the class. I personally don't feel comfortable yet reading my own stories to an audience. Hell, there are times where I get nervous knowing that someone is reading my stories online. But, I don't get as nervous with my online readers as I did today having an audience in front of me.
Does anyone else feel like this or has had this happen to them? Or is it just me?
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