..... so, I already knew I was kinda messed up in the head. In fact I accepted that I don’t think like normal people.....

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However, today my cousin enlightened me as to why.... apparently my great grandparents from my fathers side were first cousins... blood related cousins.... in fact it was their own parents that wanted them to get married and the rest of the family had no problem with it.... Inter family marriage/ion is known to have adverse effects on the children, they are more likely to developing some sort of mental instability or physical deformities... but I mean the fact that the family had no problem with it means that something was wrong in the beginning even before that.

.... so in other words... I’m ed up. I might have some sort of problem that I don’t even know.....