WARNING-LONG POST.PLEASE READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK

Last time I posted a blog about trying to confess to my crush.If any of you remembered,it was in the month of April,I think,that I posted it.So,my plan was to confess on April 17 but I didn't.And I am really happy that so many of my friends commented and advised me on my last blog plost.I really appreciate it.Thank you:)

I couldn't confess because of many things-the main reason being fear of rejection.Maybe I kind of have the feeling that he was not going to like me back,even though he was really kind of friendly to me.Yeah,I didn't confess.

Anyways,entered  school on 20June and maybe after a week or so,one of my best friend told me that he is in a relationship that too while we were in the bathroom peeingXD since our classrooms are different due to our different streams.She heard it from my classmate whose friend went to the same shool as him.So,she jut kind of blurted the news so suddenly and I couldn't process anything in my mind because my head was spinning.My heart fell really heavy at that time.We went to the school grounds since it was recess and I thought about the way we texted,the way he made me feel,making my hopes high and then he goes and have a girlfriend.I was really dejected so my tears kind of just fell,non-stop.I was laughing and crying while wiping my tears.

I really wanted to clarify it for myself so I kind of decided to ask him.I told myself that it wasn't true so that I could feel better.I told my other friends about it and one of my friends told me that she saw them walking together when school let out but she didn't think much about it because she thought they were friends and she never thought of him as the type who'll have a girlfriend.I asked classmate what her friend told her about them and she said that she used to see them together sometimes but I was thinking like they are classmates so they were probably discussing something.

I didn't think much of it after one of my old tutors,who was a friend of my crush's told me that thewy were just classmates.My friend even asked the suspected ''girlfriend''if they were in a relationship and she said that people just tease them together.

In the month of August,I was on my way to my coaching classes in the morning;it was raining.My crush also took coaching in the same place as I,but we have our classes after theirs.So I was turning the road when I saw them come together(my crush and his girlfriend)their other friends ahead of them.He was holding the umbrella and they were walking together under it.I put on my best fake smile and I talked with one of his friends and also my senior in our old school.

After classes,on my way home I came across my senior/my crush's friend so we talked about our new schools(he goes to the same school as my C).And our conversation led to him and I asked him if he have a girlfriend and he said that he does.I asked him for how  long and he said maybe the beginning of this year or the later months of last year.

Well,I'm glad that I didn't confess and I really want to thank those who told me not to and the ones who commented in my previous blog.Thank you for hearing me out and giving me all those advices.And I think my feelings for him are fading away,I'm forcing myself to stop liking him.We still communicate sometimes but I don't reply to his messages with much enthusiasm and I think he doesn't know that I know he's not in a relationship.

Since we take coaching in the same place,I usually see them walking together behind their friends on my way to classes..It really hurts to see the person you have been liking for almost 3 years is in a relationship with  another girl,but I'm trying my best to get over him.......