I have  recently made some changes, changes i hope is good for me.  Lately i was feeling disinterested in everything I was doing. Work, friends even in my escape that is kdrama and kpop. Even with the amount of Eunhae that has been killing my heart but those moments came and passed very fast. 

It has been so long i have  genuinely smiled bc i wanted to. I wasn't smiling just bc i didnt want people to ask what the problem was or ruin the mood for others. 

I moved out into my own place away from my mom. I love her and she loves me, it was just stressful when she thinks i have the answers to everything. Constantly answering questions i had no clue about. I have the personality where if i cant help someone it weighs heavily on me. All through school teachers told me it's nice to care but caring too much can get you hurt, which it did. 

I recently cut a toxic ex out my life, moved out of my moms house and though things aren't easy right away, it's much better. I'm still trying to get my weak immune system in order, but even that has gotten better. 

Today at work, i was able to sit down and write 5 pages of Damaged in my notebook. Letting my friends and family know that i want some personal time for myself so i can find my happiness again. To find my true self again has been such a huge step. Thankfully they understand and is giving me the space I need. Sometimes we really just need to take some time for ourselves so we can get better. 

For those who read this and is reading damaged  right now. You are in for a long chapter, which you totally deserve. I was squealing at work at eunhae the whole time writing. If i dont got to Niagara Falls this weekend i will have the  chapter updated by Friday/Saturday.