you know that feeling you have when things are about to change, like a sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach or the same feeling when there's a change in season. you don't know whether the decisions you've made are for the better or for the worst, well that's where I'm at, at the moment. I know things are gonna change, but is it good or bad. 

also, im turning 19 in a couple days and I have still never been in a serious relationship, it's hard to find a girlfriend, unless I've matched with her on tinder, but even then she's most likely going to live an hour away from me. the last relationship I was in wasn't that serious and we both kinda lost interest in each other pretty quickly. 

is there anyone that can give me some advice on how to meet a girl and actually turn that into a relationship. I went to a party on Friday and there was a girl there, and she's probably the only person I've actually thought about asking out for a long time, but she has a girlfriend and they've been dating for almost 2 years now. It's like I find these girls but there all in a long term relationship, this has happened to me on multiple occasions, and it's beginning to kinda piss me off.

also, i have an exam on Saturday so if you guys could give me a good luck then I would love you forever.