Somany of you may not know this, but today and every june 21st im almost never on anything.. yes i try to push out fics but this year i cant do it.. yesterday i had a mental breakdown so bad that it got to the point that i physically couldnt breathe, it took about two hours from me to calk down and im still feeling the affects today.

The reason behind my being sownand having mental breakdowns isnt one thats uncommon. June 21st 2004.. the day that a very special person in my family passed away. My great grandmother was a very strong and feisty woman.. all of ny family say that im like her in many ways and it makes me feel safe and closer to her even if shes not here anymore.

Yes i realize that it has been a very ling time since she has passed but it still affects me, some say im weak because i let it affect me. But i say that if i stop letting things about her affect me then i'll forget.. and i dont want to forget  

In the future i will be trying to write more, and write better. I just hope that you all keep in mind that on holidays.. my birthday. And this day. June 21st... i cant really do much.

Another thing i would like to bring to attention is this. 

Normally i get alot of subs and views on my s, my angst fica and i realized that those ones are all exo. I would like some of you to take the time to go give love to the lesser known fics that i have. Because i pour everything into those fics that i write by myself.. and i write them not just to get it out but to ahow you guys another side of me. I write some things because i think that they would be enjoyable to my readers. 

-kora