About my Mom.

Hello friends, tis me. I’ve come with an update type thing, just to let your guys know why I’ve been a little inactive recently. And to also assure that I’ve not forgotten or abandoned any of my stories.

Okay, well. As some of you might know, my Mother was battling Cervical Cancer for quite a while. She was in remission for a bit, but then the cancer returned, full force. I spent New Years 2017 in the emergency room with my Mom. The cancer had spread into her kidneys, and her bones, and it was then that we realized this was a lot more serious than what we had believed. It was now Stage 4. Incurable. On February 9th, I celebrated my sister’s 23rd birthday in Circle of Life Hospice. I celebrated my 18th birthday, February 18th, by my Mom’s Hospice bed. It was clear that my Mother was dying. There was nothing hope, or good luck, or well wishes would do. This was it. This is the reason why I’ve been on hiatus this year.

On the morning of May 2nd 2017, at some point between 6AM - 9AM, my Mother passed. She had told my grandmother the day before that she didn’t want to live in pain anymore, and she let go mere hours after that. And it’s very hard to watch the person you love the most in the world dying, and recognizing all the signs of death, and counting the days. It’s been a really difficult year for myself, and my family, and I apologize for my absence, because I know a lot of people are still waiting for me to update.

There were times where I seriously considered giving up writing.. And I admit, I still have these thoughts occasionally. “I’m not that good of a write,” “It wouldn’t even matter much if I left,” "My stories anyways," But I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t won't leave writing, because I love it. It brings me happiness, and relief, and I absoutely adore seeing these stories I've created come to life. I love my readers and subscribers and commenters the most. You guys are truly the greatest, and your comments never fail to bring a smile to my face. I love you guys a lot, and I'm sorry it's taking me forever to write.

I'm in the middle of moving, so it'll probably be a little longer of a wait. I have 20 days to move all of my belongings into a tiny apartment with four other roommates, so... It's be an Experience. It feel likes everything that's ever brought me security and comfort is being ripped out from under me, so it might take a while before I'm on my feet again. I'm sorry, again, and please be patient with me. I love you guys, and thank you.

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lanadel
#1
I'm very sorry for your loss , sending you plenty of positive vibes .Stay strong !! :**
At1stsight
#2
I'm so so very sorry for your loss darling. :(
I'm glad that you have found ways to be happy and that writing is one of them. Please do whatever you need to take care of YOU during this difficult time. We will wait forever and be here as your friends if/when you return, doll. <3 Thinking of you!!
sleepingprince
#3
Deepest condolence to you and your family. I hope that you'l stay strong
seragcc #4
I'm so sorry :( Take the time you need; we will always support you. Many of us love everything you write. You have a loyal fanbase. Take strength in us.
YANADA17
#5
This maybe a bit overdue but my deepest condolence author nim. I hope you would feel better, no need for it to be soon :) Take your time till you can finally really get back up with your life :)