Do you know that from the moment I saw first saw you
It was you Let’s walk together on the road in front of us
A beautiful day is spread out in front of us
* I WANNA BE WITH YOU MY LOVE
I promise you under the sky
I will protect you
For eternity
I WANNA LOVE YOU FOREVER
Can you see it, my heart
Please breathe beside me
For eternity
I love you .......... I love you 
Do you know that you are my happiness
I will confess my love, forever please
Be by my side

At first I hate this song. It seems like miserable sentence, I didn't believe love. It hurts me a lot when I felt no one love me. I din't know what is love, how to love, and I din't know anything about love. I believe that love was something that can make you smile, laugh, cry and desperate, but all I knew love means desperate and cry. I lied to my self, lied that everyones love me or the best thing that I realized no one love me. 

Sometime I aware my parents love me, so do my little brother and my family. It just too hard to believe they love me. I don't have good memories of my childhood, all I know my parent were really bussy to work, they ensure to gave me all I need, but they never beside me when I was alone. I just want their love. Everything was changed when my brother was born. We removed to new house and start new life, Mom never realized I felt alone. She never hugged me, she never listened to me that's why I never told her what did happen to me. My dad work hard for us, he didn't want I and my brother felt how hard to live as orphan. My grandfather passed away when my father was child. My father must work to finance his life and my grandmother, though he has older brothers and sisters all of them were children. He never told me his story, but I knew it when his neighboor told me how hard my father's life when young. It just hard for me, I used to spent my childhood alone and all of sudden I must be a sister. 

When I was in junior highschool I like someone, but he never noticed me. I was nerd and called me duck If you want. I kept my feeling till he graduated. I through hard them being bullied during junior highschool.  When highschool I changed my style, I still loner and didn't knew what to do. Could you imagine the boys who always called me nerd and bullied me told me that I'm beautiful and he praised me? Did he know I'm one of his victim? Maybe, he didn't know because of I just unimportant person for him.

Thank to everyone who always tried their best to understand they way I am. I was falling in love once again, but sadly he just like me as sister and chose my friend. To cheer my self I confessed "fake love" to other boy and he accepted me then I realized he always beside me, but that made me felt guilty I broke our relationship first and he said "it's okay. I understand. Don't worry I'm okay". Till now I don't know how to face him and maybe it's fate that we share same university and same faculty. 

Hard to found your self trapped in situation that everyone that you love just assume you as sister. I found my self being so selfish and stubborn, I didn't believe in friendship and love. I hate when no one love me, I hate when boys came to me and all of sudden said I love you. How could I belive with love when   they said love so easily. I just want to finding the right one.... I want someone who love me and I love him. I'm confuse, I don't know what is love when I typed this question still bother me. I just too confuse, I just don't know.... I'm selfish

Any challenge that comes our way
Let’s overcome it with our love
** Please look at me for eternity
Please hold me for eternity
Love me for eternity
So that we’ll be happy
Looking at only you for eternity (Forever)
I pray that we’ll be happy **
I WANNA BE WITH YOU MY LOVE
I promise you under the sky
I will protect you
For eternity
I WANNA LOVE YOU FOREVER
I hope that our love will be happy
Let’s create by ourselves
Beautiful days
I love you
For eternity

I wish when he find me, I'm not too blind to feel that he is someone who God created for me. Someone who will help me to realized how much love that I get. For eternity when he comes, I love him forever. Someone who love me as the way I am.