Many of my friends have talked to their crush. I've seen them do it like eating a chicken, just easy just like that. 

One day, I though to talk with ma crush, but  how can I talk to him if walk with him just in front me on a one hallway just make me nervous so hard. For me its so hard to talk to him.

I have my crush on him when I was 14 years old. It was when we bumped at a market. That day, I don't even know that he's same school with me. I find out when my school held a sport day. And we're at the same age. I didn't know cuz his class was afar from my class.

However when I was 15, I get a chance to talk to him cuz his my enemy. Isn't its a bit cliche.. Haaha, I didn't remember  how we became an enemy. That year we was a classmate. But because of that stupid enemy thing, I can't focus on my studies and at the end I've got a really really bad result.

So, in 16 and 17, I didn't get to be his classmate again. But my class just beside his. That two year, I found out that he's my (true?) love. Hahahaha, aww so embrassed. I confessed it to my friends that I have a hard crush on our own enemy. They just laugh at me. They, said: "people always talk that don't hate people who are not same gender as us cuz it will split that hate feeling to love". Heck, yeah I've got the karma guys. 

I said he is my (true?) love cuz I've never been on this hard crush feeling. You know like having a boyfriend feeling. I've a crush before this, but I can easily managed to forget them just in one day tho. But with him, it took me years (but I though I can't never forget him). I tried my best to forget him. But, same result. Just made me fallen deeper. Oh my god, why do I have this feeling on him for the first place, although he never talk to you in that two year, although he never look at you in that two year. Why did I do to have this feeling.

Right now, I've graduated from highschool and probably can't see him after this till reunion ceremony and that day he bring his girlfriend or his fiancé or his wife with him. And I, at the corner just eat my soul out by look at him happy with his girl. Oh my god, please made him dashed out from my mind. If it possible, please take out my memories with when we was an enemy and please take this stupid crush feeling out from my heart.. 

Is it possible to not watch ZE:A or PARK HYUNG SIK's dramas? Cuz my crush's face just photocopied PARK HYUNG SIK's face!!!! His laugh, his smile, his whatever was just photocopied from Park Hyung Sik.. But I can't, cuz Park Hyung Sik is my ultimate bias... Arghhh!!!

p/s: sorry for any grammatical error.. I'm from Malaysia tho.. Nice to meet you all -,<