It first hits me when I realised I was crying while  watching the exoxredvelvet sketches ad.

Of how hard I was obsessing over this person whom I never met. I only watch him through the 1-2 minutes sometimes a few seconds duration video yet I was head over heels. How could that even happened? Is this truly love or just an obsession? 

I felt hurt and... like I was betrayed by my own feelings because I cannot control myself. And how it made me felt weak and insecure like.. my whole world is just between his palms.

I got mad everytime I catch myself smiling when I see him, scolding myself of how easy I was being. But how can I control it?

Ugggghhhh! Even just by hearing his voice he took my breath away.