My Singing Plans Are Completely Done For
I have given up on music. Imma mark February 2nd 2012 as the day I gave up my dream of being a singer or actress.
Why?
1. My dream is not supported by my parents
2. My dream is not supported by my religion
3. My parents won't let me audition even if it's just a trial
4. If can't live my dream, there is no way I can do anything musical without having my passion yearn inside me.
So what did I do?
I threw away ALL musical things I have. Put them in the garbage. My IPod's, my magazines, my lyric binder, my posters, magnets and even a JongKey photo I had. And I'm planning to give away all my CD's so if your looking for an album... let me know.
What does this mean in general as a whole?
No more music AT ALL. I won't listen to the radio or go on YouTube or watch much TV. Maybe no TV? I swear, everytime I see anything related with being what it is I want to be which is acting or singing... I day dream. I can't forget about this without going anti-media. So, goodbye SHINee!! If I meet you Key it will be in Korea where I just happen to meet you...
No SM audition.
So no meeting Snuggie I guess :(
No keeping up with any KPop news or music or music at all.
I'll continue my stories but if something happens to the idols I'm writing about, I won't know. And I'd rather no one ask me if I heard 'this and that' or that 'who and who did this and this'. It'll just hurt me.
And for those who I said I would sing a song for, I'm sorry loves. I can't do it....
I've never been so idk... confused and torn apart. Okay... maybe when I had my first heartbreak but this is a different kind of devestation.
I'll upload a picture of my stuff in the trash to show how dead serious I am.
And as I type this, SHINee is my computer backrground... I'm going to miss them. I hope all my favorite KPop groups do well. I'll probably forget all about them but... I guess it's what I got to do.
And oh so just read somewhere that Key's least favorite food is carrots and favorite being Italian food. Exactly like me...
And the dream to be a singer has always been in him. As well, he wants to be an artist/painter, anything related to the arts. While me, I have a second passion for photography. So, hopefully I meet this man in my own ways...
Made this blog into my babe's fav color... hopefully maybe it makes this announcement less depressing.
Love you guys...
Proof:
And my JongKey photo in the trash....
^ Idk if you can see my IPod and headphones...
Yeah there was a lot of basic teen stuff that I used to be into (A long time ago). There's a Selena Gomez poster there (Not a fan) and then the Jonas Brothers/Camp Rock stuff (Camp Rock actually inspired me a lot for some odd reason. After I watched it, I started writing songs. I wrote a song everyday for about 2 months or more. I think more... They were all but it just made me happy to write), threw away Justin Bieber posters and all those magazines I bought. And my lyric binder is there, too.
And I don't think I will be taking up dancing. If I end up putting my mind to it then it will become another dream and I will go through all this again.
Don't want to seem like a cry baby but I just really need to write my thoughts down <3
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