Hello, everyone.

As sad as I was on my previous two blog posts were, is as happy as I am right now.

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Well, okay, maybe not that happy. But I guess, I can that I am contented. First of all, things between me and my parents are now good. I may not have won the argument, like me getting to do my own decisions, but at least, we were able to realize where we lacked, and where we should improve. I guess, the moment we reflected of our shortcomings, I was able to think carefully of where they were coming from. I'm happy, because this made me realize that despite the fact that I was partly wrong (honestly even more), I now know that they only want what's best for me. And so, yeah, we're good. :)

As for my friends, well, just last night, I already talked to my friends, and we said sorry to each other. The only problem is that, only one of my friends was able to talk to me properly.

It was just on chat, but we were able to say what we wanted to say. I told her about my issues with her, and she told me mine, we apologized to each other and we were good. The other friend, on the other hand, I don't understand her. I was the first one to apologize, I told her that I was sorry for acting so cold towards them last week, and that I only did that because I got mad at them because of their boyfriends, and thesis. But she was like, "You got mad? You acted cold? I don't get it, you were?" And I was like, "...what?" How could she act so unaffected by it? How could she act so cool about it that she won't even ask me what's wrong? As caring and patient my other friend was, is as cold and ignorant as she is. I don't even understand myself anymore too, how did she become my friend? I can't believe she turned to be like that. Before things get messed up, let's name my friend whom I reconciled with as L, while the other as J. I am so sorry for comparing, but, while L explained to me that, "Once you have your boyfriend, you will understand where I am coming from, however, I'm sorry that I always bring my boyfriend with me, but he also had a problem and that is the only way I can help." and I understand that, because I know she was honest with meand she told me everything. But J? All she did was make me feel guilty that she felt the same way, that she also felt mad at me when I dated someone, that she felt I neglected her, that I was ignoring her? That despite that she said nothing and acted happy around us. Hell no! In all honesty, I was never the vocal one, only when asked, it was the time I tell them about what happened to my date, I never go brag about what we ate, or we went, or we did. But her? She kept on rambling on and on about him! She kept on texting him, even during discussions, even during our sleepovers to do our thesis. When they fight, she tells me, even if it was just a little thing, I listened to her. Where is the respect when your friend just ended things with her potential boyfriend, yes? And also, I don't get it, she looked like she was telling me that I deserve to feel so guilty, that I did all the wrong in the world. Oh my goodness, she didn't even think about the thesis that only I did! L apologized to me countless times, and I did as well, because we were able to tell each of what and why we felt disappointed. But you know guys? I felt so disappointed with how close-minded J was. And if she ever act like she was going to make me feel guilty and ignore me? It's okay, because I told her what I felt, and I apologized if I was being irrational. If she ever act like she is not my friend anymore, it's okay, and I forgive her, because I think it's better to forgive even if she did not say sorry, because I was able to let out my frustrations over her. If she keeps on acting so ignorant, then it;s not my fault anymore. I've done my part. I guess all I can do is just move on from it.

Now, my question is, am I wrong if I say that I am finally giving up on J, since all she did was make me feel guilty when I already let go of my pride and told her I was sorry?