Past, present or future? A simple question but one will need to take in account of some things before answering it. 

The past. Hurtful. Evil. My past is the definition of living in fear. Thanks to my dad, my childhood was destroyed just like that. The past is always haunting me day by day as I relief the painful memories when my parents were always arguing and fighting with each other. The presence of the knife that played a significant role in the fight. The day where my mother couldn't take it anymore and wanted to take her own life. Yeah...my past is just a bag full of fearful memories that I had to carry everywhere.

The present. Confuse. Lost. Unsure. My present is uncomfortable. Since I started a different education route, I had to seperate from my friends whom I have been friends with for eleven years already. I failed to find anyone who will be there for me here in this new school. Meeting new friends and new people is really hard. Hard when you don't want anyone to know that you are a direct jerk. Well, my present is what I have to overcome to enter my future. 

The future. Unknown. Mysterious. I have always been dreaming of entering university and working at the hospital. Well at the very least, the medical field. I also dreamt of improving the relationship between me and my dad but I don't even know where to start. I want to let my mum rest and support her. Let her live the life. I want my life to end on a good note. Please let me believe that there is a happy ending. Hopefully my future does not disappoints.

My answer to the question is the present. Right now, I just want things to be the way it is. The past is such a horror and the future is a plain dark empty sheet of canvas. I am grateful with the present.

So, what is your answer? Past, present or future?